Life is a fucking mystery...

Life is a fucking mystery...

Monday, March 28, 2011

8:28 PM

Bloody hell I can't do paragraphings on blogger!!! So sorry guys to have to let y'all read in one whole chunk. Maybe I'll use alternate colours to differentiate the paragraphings instead. I'm so damn buried in the piles of homework and tests. Plus PI is really such a pain in the ass omggg =.= I'm struggling, oh yes I totally am. As much as I hate to admit it, I have to. Can't really complain though. I've been fully warned about JC life and had the choice of picking poly education, which I didn't. And well the small consolation is that my dear friends are all going through the same process as me. So I guess I'll just have to endure and...... well, just endure. Council is also really hectic and taking up loads of my time. But it's also fun to make more awesome friends (: And there's council camp this friday after school till saturday afternoon! I'm pretty convinced they're gonna torture us but what the heck, we'll still have fun :D So should I run for President for the 12th Student Council? It's gonna be pretty competitive...

This is me.

2:22 PM

I'M GOING FOR JUSTIN BIEBER'S CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going with mum (weird I know) and sis. Actually wanted to just bring my sis but my mum keeps insisting that it's not safe, later got stampede. And I will neglect my sis =.= So she has to come along. But I know, deep down she wants to go too :D

I told my mum and sis that we gotta wear purple since that's JB's favourite colour! I don't have any purple shirts so i'm gonna buy one soon. And I found a pair of purple Converse shoes at Jurong Point Converse which costs $59.90. Hopefully I can get that before the concert (with my own money D: sad) Then maybe also purple shoelaces, and purple socks? Hahaha. And with the purple "NY" cap dear bought for me, I'm good to go! :DDD

So excited!!!!

This is me.

5:12 PM

Long time long time...

Let's see what has happened so far that is worth mentioning here..

Ok, life in PJC is still as wonderfully fun and awesome for me :D And my council campaign is finally over!!! Damn, it was so hectic, I've never used my email account so seriously and intensive before.. I mean, I never used to bother checking my email at all before this council stuff. But if I finally do get into SC I will be working on my email all day long and the hectic schedule will be back =/ Well voting results will be out next week. So fingers-crossed, let's hope it all turns out well. If not I'm not gonna go for debates!!!!!!!! I will go for Cuesports. With Humairah ((:

Next, I'm going for JUSTIN BIEBER'S CONCERT ON 19 APRIL!!!!!!!!!!! Ok that's if I manage to get the tickets eventually. Cos my parents don't have Visa card and they only give Visa holders priority now. And public ticket sales only opens on 14 March which is like so freaking far awaaaayyyyy!!!!!! So hopefully by then I will manage to get a ticket. Oh and I'm going with my sis, AND my mum =.= I know right, so lame and weird. But whatever, as long as I get to go, it's good enough for me. The amazing thing is that my dad actually allows me to go. Till now I still can't seem to really believe it. Both my parents are gonna share the ticket price as my birthday present. Again, this has gotta pull through or everything will be so ruined for me...

And 14 APRIL is the Singapore Premiere of Never Say Never 3D!!!!!! Justin Bieber loves April doesn't he :DDD

Yeah so that's about it... Currently at Tere's dad's home office doing our history project. Nearly done, I was the first to do my recording so I'm pretty free now.

This is me.

5:33 PM

HOHOHO I'M BAAAAAAACK!!!!

Yes and how time flies, it's already February.

I love PJC!!!! And my class 11A05 is just soo AWESOME!!! And I have 2 great girlfriends too. Teresa and Mairah, I love you girls!!! :D

Orientation was such a blast and I believe it is mainly why our class is so bonded. I never thought I would be this happy in Pioneer JC. I feel like my classmates and I have known each other for like sooo long.

I am Proud to Be A Pioneer! :D
LOL at Pioneer Proud To Be A. (inside joke within us Pioneers!!)

Anyways, I had Council interview just now. I was panicking sooo bad while sitting outside to wait. There were 3 J2s (one female and two males) and 2 teachers (one female and one male). How unfair!!!! 1 of me versus 5 of them. Scaryyyy D:

But I think I did ok. I think I seem confident enough and sure of my answers. I think... You think I think then who confirm? Hahahaha. Those 5 big bad "bullies" sitting in front of me confirm lor... Results will be out on Friday, hope I get through.

Oh, one of the questions was, "What do you have to say about the excessive usage of Singlish during orientation?" I gave an honest answer, "I think it's perfectly fine since orientation is a time to have fun and enjoy ourselves. As long as we know how to switch between proper English and Singlish at the appropriate time, I really don't see a problem with it."

Then I saw the female teacher kinda like shaking her head while writing in her paper. Shittttt...

Ok, sidetrack. I may seem alright here, but deep inside, I'm pretty messed up and just greatly confused and apprehensive. There are so many things that seem fated to happen whether I like it or not. And unfortunately for me, they all seem to be bad stuff that I have to handle. But if they are all planned out, I can't really prevent them from happening, can I? So I'm really just trying to take everything in my stride and stay as positive as i can. If not life will just be so miserable for me and I absolutely hate that. It's a new year, I just wanna start afresh on a proper footing... That's why I'm also apprehensive. What else will happen in my full-of-shit life? Like I always say, I believe someone out there, or probably UP there, is trying to kill me...

But I won't give up so easily cos that's just so not me :D

And well, hopefully things are as they really seem and it will be alright...

This is me.

10:16 AM

[You To Me Are Everything by The Real Thing]

I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to.
I'd do anything for you
your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand.

Words cannot express how much you mean to me.
There must be some other way to make you see.
If it takes my heart and soul
you know I'd pay the price.
Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice.

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Though you're close to me
we seem so far apart.
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart.
If it takes forever girl
then I'm prepared to wait.
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Oh you to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Oh you to me are everything.
the sweetest song that I could sing.
(You're the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby (oh baby)
Oh baby (yes I need you baby)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby (you are everything to me)
Oh baby (cant you see)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
(You're the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby
Oh baby (you're everything)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby (your the sweetest song)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.

[end]

Fuck it. I'm an emotional wreck. Will somebody please help me...

This is me.

9:21 PM

Well another one of the oh-so-major turning point of our lives is here.

Buh bye to Secondary School Life and Hello to College Life, for me and many others.

I screwed up the Os, big time.

I am such a disappointment.

So what if I can still get into a JC, it's one that isn't very recognised. But that choice is what I'm definitely eligible for, so of course I'll put that as first choice to prevent any disappointments and rejections. I'm too lazy to do any appeal especially when my parents know nothing and I have to do it by myself.

4 years of secondary school life all wasted. I played too much.

My family and relatives are all really happy for me though, but that's little comfort. I know I should have done better.

16. Shit score.

All supposed A1s to A2s. Shit.

Whatever. I am the shit.

Me the Shit, so gonna study hard for JC or I can just kill myself.

This is me.

9:46 AM

Just some pictures from yesterday's photoshoot at Gwen's house. More at Facebook.

Took leave from work and went to Gwen's house at 9.15am. In the beginning just slacked around and caught up with each other, then ordered Canadian Pizza for lunch and talked some more. Then I helped her to un-clutter her wardrobe of overflowing clothes, and got to keep some of her clutter, hee :D

Then we decided to have a photoshoot, so we put on our make up, tried on clothes and yayyyyy!!!! It was super funnnn :DDD

Notice i usually have the shades on, cos I think my eyes are so small, even with the eyeliner drawn, argh. And honestly Gwen is more professional at this, she has many nice shots that are really model-like. Thanks to my awesome skills of photo-taking too ok, hahaha. Kidding...

Should do it again some time, then hopefully I'll get better at it ><

And I'm getting a sore throat D:

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

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