Life is a fucking mystery...

Life is a fucking mystery...

Sunday, February 28, 2010

1:29 PM

So much for going running. I fell down (again) and now there's this big raw bruise under my left eye and it's totally swollen. This idiot dunno rush for what shit run run run and slammed right into me from the back. The impact was huge and i fell head-first. Fortunately i didnt hit my head or i'll probably get a concussion. He helped me up, and was like "Ohmigod im so sorry. Are you ok?" I touched my face, felt the swell and went "Fuck." Either he didnt hear it, or pretended not to. So i called my mum, and she came to look for me. She was so shocked at my injury that she actually cupped my face in her hands and said "Aiyo why like that?? Pain or not? 很可怜leh. Faster go home i put medicine for you." All i can say is that my mum and i seldom have bodily contact, let alone holding each other's hands. Go figure.

So should i go to school tmr? I think i'll see how i feel first. It's really raw, and people will totally freak out. Argh. Like clara said, im rubbing off her clumsiness, but mine are prominent injuries that can be seen. Damn it.

On a cheerier note for me, i became a fan of justin bieber on Facebook!!!! It's like i can communicate with him now. YAYYYYYY :D :D :D

Singing out loud now: Baby by Justin Bieber. "Baby, baby baby oohh, though you'd always be mine."

This is me.

6:55 PM

There's gonna be one less lonely girl...

Let me tell you one time, girl i love girl i love you... <3

Ok both videos are making me so damn jealous. Anw i just re-watched the video on a super adorable 3 year girl who cried over justin bieber. Sadly embedding isn't allowed. And justin actually went over to her house eventually to pay her a visit!!!!! OMGGGGG. I AM SO JEALOUS!!!! God im going crazy over him. Is he gonna ever come to singapore?? I actually dreamt on him on thurs. It's kinda fuzzy, but the amazing dream went like this: It's my birthday, and my parents said "We have a surprise for you!" then they drove me to this shopping mall and we went into this restaurant. They led me to a two seater table and there's alr someone there. From the back i saw that it was a guy with blond hair and wearing a cap. I walked cautiously to the chair in front of him and when i was about to sit down, the guy looked up and i went "OMFG Justin Bieber???!!!!!" He took my outburst very nicely and pulled out the chair for me. Then i can't rmb what happened, but the next scene i recall is we started eating and chatted and laughed and had so much fun. And he looked so hot and adorable right in front of me!!!!! Then some @#$%^&* thing woke me up and *poof* my dream date/perfect birthday disappeared. DARN IT.

Thu went to kfc after sch with ongxin, huifang, william, melanzzo, boey, mingze and jason. Ate then just chatted, laughed and played Tap Tap. Left at about 5.15pm.

Common test results next week. Siannnn. Wish me luck people. I think im gonna suck at alot of the papers. Oh well. Bye bye.

This is me.

5:06 PM

6 down, 3 more to go. Time flies, really... Im finally gaining confidence in chemistry!!! Organic chem rocks! (cos it's like the only thing in chem i really understand so far) And seriously, though it sounds stupid, ALKANES and ALKENES are just such elegant names. (as Boey says, only geeks think that someth related to education can be elegant) BUT im not a geek. No way, and never will.

Top 10 things on my to-do list:
#1: Continue mugging even when common tests are over. Remember, it's the big Os that matter this year!
#2: Stop thinking about him. It doen't help to brood over the past. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, being friends is nice too.
#3: Go running this Sunday. At least 5 rounds to lose the fats gained during CNY. Then don't eat anything sinful for the rest of the day to make it seem pointless.
#4: Save more money to buy new earphones for hp.
#5: Control my lousy temper.
#6: Pack my room asap.
#7: Catch a movie or maybe go bowling to get a life after mugging for so long.
#8: Stop being rude to my parents to avoid unnecessary arguments.
#9: Try to accept Mrs Tan H.T (though i really don't like her)
#10: Continue seeing Mr Liu as often as possible for private chem consultation.

And thanks to the many people who praised me for monday's morning assembly- Clara, Hui Fang, Melanzzo, Boey, Agnes, Gladys, Ongxin and some of my ex classmates too. Haha im really proud of myself too! :) I was still worrying i wouldnt be loud enough and be made a laughing stock. Mdm Surin said that some teachers told her "The commander so small sized, voice so loud arh." LOL. (is this alcoholic?) HAHAHAHA.

Yst after revising went home with yujie, boey, jingying and huifang. At the mrt station there was this guy who didnt zip his backpack. I told yujie to go tell the guy, and the way he approached the guy was super epic, like he walked sideways in 2 big strides in the very yujie way, and tapped the guy on the shoulders and said something like "Excuse me you didnt zip your bag.". Couldnt hear cos the rest of us were laughing too hard. At least i was. :D Then on the train just talked lots of random crap with him. Laughing with yujie is therapeutic. Haha.

Song running through my head right now: All The Way Around by Ali Lohan
This song is for you my dear. "Cos i threw the best thing I ever had away."

This is me.

11:26 AM

Baby by Justin Bieber (LOVE this song, and he's cute!)

Jadon is specially reserved via the Visa card. xD

Me and Keegan! So cute!!!!

Keegan busy playing i-touch...

Me and Sis

Yesterday was 初七which was人日, so went for dinner with my 姑姑and her family. Steamboat at Katong, 天府火锅, where my family goes pretty often, like once a week. Until recently haven't been going there for quite awhile. The food there is pretty nice, with friendly staff. AND, there's this HOT GUY waiter there. OMGGGGG. He's really damn hot, and his smile is so charming!!!! My mum and i always gush over him with my dad and sis rolling their eyes at us... I always thought he was like in his early 20s, but yst my mum asked him and he was only 19! He's malaysian with a slight accent, but HOT all the same!!!! My dad reserved our table in the open, but my mum wanted the air-conditioned indoors, and he actually arranged it specially for us though it was so last minute. My parents thanked him and he was like "不客气，请坐请坐。很久没看到你们了，很忙吗?" so cute. During the dinner my mum asked me whether i wanted to take a photo with him, i just amchio but say of course not la. BUT when we were about to leave my mum went to ask him whether she could take a picture of him. I was so mortified!!!! And he was veryyyy shyyyyy. He said no of course, and asked why. God. My mum just say nothing la... LOL, i could have died of embarrassment, seriously. Then he said bye to every member of our family upon leaving, and when it was my turn he WAVED to MEEEE!!!!!!! He didnt wave to the rest!!! WOOHOO!!!! I think i got on my dad's nerves that he actually pushed my head and told me to shut up and give it a rest. LOL. Hope we can go there for dinner soon again! Hee :D

This is me.

9:29 PM

LOVE those shades! ^.^

Minnie, Dolbie and Me! <3

Dolbie, Me and Shermaine <3

Blackjack! $_$ ka-ching!

Dunno whether you guys have heard of this game called "In Between", but anw it's a game where your bets are put in the middle. Lazy to explain... Accumulated till there's a $50 note but didnt take the picture of that, darn.

Well anyway, this cny has been a blast. New year's eve started celebrating at 6pm plus at 大舅's house, ate steamboat and gambled (blackjack and in between) all the way till 3am. There were like a total of 80 over people in his house, seriously. It was damn noisy and HIGHHHHH!!!! Went to a temple (which we do so every year), prayed and barbequed and ate. 4am went home, 4.30 knocked out.

初一woke up at 10am, went to paternal side's great granma's house. Ate, and played blackjack. 3pm went to maternal grandma's house, took a nap there. 7pm went to 大舅's house again. Played card games but not gambling. Then went to play Hotel 626 with cousins. Cut it short, SCARYYYY... Especially when you play it alone. With your lights off and volume turned up. *shudders* Then blackjacked again till 4am plus. Went home and knocked out again

初二went to maternal grandaunt's house. Ate, blackjacked, watched IRONMAN!!!! Love it, no matter how many times i watched it. Cos i LOVE Robert Downey Jr!!! Then went to a distant relative's house, ate again, gambled a little and went home at 9pm. Slept at 10pm to replenish the previous days' lack of sleep.

Today went to 小姨's house for steamboat lunch. Blackjack again and guess what, I GOT TRIPLE SEVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which means i receive 7 times of my bet, which is 7 x 2 = 14!!!!!!!

I got two 7s and i was like showing my mum, she said "Wow, get another 7 ya!" I was like nah it's impossible. And when i took the card and like slowly peeking at it and it was indeed a bloody 7, i screamed like nobody's business and ran and jumped around the whole living room. Gosh, the feeling is totally exhilarating. Im like the second person to ever get it in the family, the first being my maternal grandmother about 5 years ago. Seriously. Ate steamboat dinner again and gambled some more. Then come home by myself while mum and sis went to 大舅's house again. Can't go cos they will confirm come back at only 3am or 4am plus, I'll totally die tmr, not to mention have horrible dark circles around my eyes. Sis in afternoon session so not that bad, haix.

Common tests start next monday, petrified. Guides parade next monday, nervous. Gotta switch back to mugging and pia-ing mood. Come on Sarah, 加油，加油，加油!!!!!

This is me.

4:33 PM

Ok it looks like im obsessed with myself or something, but we have nothing better to do so we used anything around us as props to take some pics.

I love this pair of geek specs (without lens), it's my cousin's. I'm gonna buy a pair too! Hee :D

Another day in school. Filled with laughter over someone with initial C, filled with random moments of staring into space and thinking too much, filled with sudden fatigue and loss of focus during certain lessons (need i mention, esp math) Gee, Mr Ng how i wish you were still teaching us. Really, your lessons aren't as boring as the ones we are having now. And somehow your teaching is just way more appealing. Im serious in case you doubt my words. I dont kid around about whether or not i like the lessons/teachers. Practically every math lesson i'll be grumbling to Boey about our current math teacher.

And like i actually fixed tmr to consult mr liu about my chem. Yes my mum is like "You're FINALLY doing something about it!!" then turns out that ms sathi wants to see me tmr also regarding history cos she says i tend to "forget certain skills at certain times". i was pretty frustrated when she said i had to see her as i really wanted to consult mr liu as long as i can. and she saw my expression and spoke to me personally.

ms sathi (S): why sarah, why are you so frustrated?

me (M): cos i alr have an appointment with mr liu.

S: it's going to take only a short while my dear alright?

M: *in a super blunt tone* is it because i suck at answering the questions?

S: no no, like i said you are actually improving alot, it's just that you tend to forget to do certain things in your answers. so i just want to remind you and make you better at it.

M: is it because of the most recent class test?

S: yes abit, but dont worry you can do it and i will help you. you have the potential but you just need to be reminded a little more ok dear?

M: um. ya. ok.

S: *kiddingly* and it just goes to show how much you enjoy mr liu's lesson compared to mine. *flicks hand at me and turns away* be gone sarah.

M: er no. i HATE chemistry. really.

S: im kidding luh.

I sian alr cos it means i probably flopped my hist class test. Sigh. Damn it. Then walked to back gate bus stop with Boey and Mingze (William and Huifang crossed the road to the other side). End of school day. Oh and im proud to say that i ran 5 rounds of about 1.6km yst morning. I should cultivate this habit and do it every sunday cos my thighs are just huge. But it seemed useless cos we went to Seoul Garden for dinner later that evening. And i ate ALOT. Then gamed hard at Time Zone with dad and sis. We finally completed Jurassic Park EXPERT! And i scored a higher overall score than my dad for the first time!! But his accuracy was 89.7 while mine was 85.3. And it's my highest ever.

ok gotta go do homework. SIANNNN.... gotta learn spelling too cos it's like the only thing im good at and better than huifang and Boey. they asked me to sit in the middle. Hahahaha. Kkk chaaaance. (copyrighted from Melanzzo) XP

CANT WAIT FOR CNY HOLIDAYS!!!! (though still need to mug. probably bringing notes around to study. Argh. NO LIFE!)

This is me.

2:38 PM

My eye candy: Timothy on the right. HE IS SOOO CUTE!!!!

Like i've always said, one should never carry too much hope on an issue. And one should always and definitely think before you speak or do something. I already emo-ed, and will not emo now. I've cried more than enough tears and will not make my eyes swell just because of you.

Someone told me how hurt he was when it was over for him. And i was there for him. Someone tried being there for me whenever i was down or just plain sian. But i guess it was all before i agreed to his request. Things have changed so much. Sure initially it was great. But then it all boils down to only one thing: you broke your promise. The promise that you gave me before. Though on a more generous note maybe it isn't entirely your fault. Still, a little more effort would have been nice, esp since you were so keen on it and of course so was i. I did mention this problem, and do u rmb how u said it would never happen. But here it is, happening right now. And to quote what you said "Promises are all lies until they are fulfilled." You've said them to ppl numerous times, maybe this is the first time it is being said back to you...

So all im saying is simple. We need time apart. Maybe for a little while. Maybe forever. We won't know. And maybe, we should just be the way we were before...

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

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