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Wednesday, December 29, 2010

9:45 AM

"Cut by Plumb"

I'm not a stranger,
No I am yours.
With crippled anger,
And tears that still drip sore.

A fragile frame aged,
With misery.
And when our eyes meet,
I know you see.

I do not want to be afraid.
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in.
I'm tired of feeling so numb.
Relief exists I find it when,
I am cut.

I may seem crazy,
Or painfully shy.
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden,
If you would just look me in the eye.
I feel alone here and cold here.
Though I don't want to die,
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside.

I do not want to be afraid.
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in.
I'm tired of feeling so numb.
Relief exists I find it when,
I am cut.
Pain
I am not alone,
I am not alone.

I'm not a stranger,
No I am yours.
With crippled anger,
And tears that still drip sore.

But I do not want to be afraid.
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in.
I'm tired of feeling so numb.
Relief exists I found it when,
I was cut.

This song is from The Vampire Diaries. Such a beautiful song, but very emo, especially when all the comments on YouTube are by those who have really cut themselves. Been quite a long time since I've felt emo enough to even want to do this. Yes I'm gonna admit it, I've done this, three times.

But I'm all fine now (: I haven't been actually emo for a long long time. Cos I'm happy now. And contented. So I hope all the beautiful things I have now last as long as possible. I have to cherish and appreciate all that I have now ♥♥♥

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

Gwendolyn
Teresa
Humairah

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