Life is a fucking mystery...

Thursday, December 30, 2010

9:28 AM

I'm so gonna quit next week, so buh-bye to all fucked up attitudes, you-must-listen-to-all-my-shit-cos-i-know-best and i-know-it-all-but-you-know-nothing treatments.

I'm gonna start every post with a red sentence to get all my thoughts across. And the one above refers to how I feel at work. Yes honestly I do love what I do, cos all in all it's pretty straightforward and the pay is good. BUT what can turn an employee off the most is the employer, or whoever the employee is under. And for my case is my supervisor Alvin.

In my first post at work I said he was nice. Fuck me for my wrong and premature judgement. He sucks to the core. He acts like he knows it all, and somehow acts like he's my elder brother. He even tries to barge into my private matters and give me "advice" and demands that I do what he says. Everyone is nothing to him, he is all that matters and we must all listen to what he says. We don't even have the right to voice our opinions.

He hates it when he sees that we have nothing to do and tries to dig anything out just to keep my hands busy, and the worst is all those stuff are NOT within my job scope. Yesterday he himself told me at the start of the day that I won't have anything to do, so I went to the staff lounge after lunch with my colleagues. Halfway through he called me and was pissed that I was at the staff lounge enjoying myself, so he called me back to do some installation. After I've done that, I headed back to the staff lounge where my colleagues managed to book the ktv room. So we were singing when he suddenly barged in and was like hollering and pointing at me from the door, he was all like "Very fun hor, you stay here for the rest of the day luh don't need come back to the office. Tomorrow you will suffer." He was using the half-joking tone but I didn't fall for it. A threat nonetheless. I'm not afraid ok you bastard.

Then he turned to my 2 colleagues Shi Ying and Liyanah and even though they weren't even under him, he started bossing them around.

How fucked up is he?

That day he made Shi Ying fall and we all saw it with our own eyes. But he was pushing all the blame on her, saying that he didn't make her fall, she fell by herself. And not even a word of apology. Come on, he rolled past her side on his roller chair, then hooked his arm around her arm and continued rolling. Of course she lost balance and fell. So it's her fault that she got dragged out of nowhere and lost balance?

Which comes to another point, he's touchy towards us girls. He puts him arms around us, grabs our arms, even puts his hand at our waists. I don't know if he has done all these to the other 2 girls, but he has done these to me. I closed one eye initially though I was highly uncomfortable.

Then once when I was super angry with him, I decided it was the last straw. I was ignoring him while he was talking, so he came to my table and I refused to look up from the com. Liyanah and Shi Ying were both sitting beside me. He said some more stuff and I still didn't look up. So he used both his hands to cup my face and tried forcing me to look towards him. I grabbed his hands and shouted "Don't fucking touch me!!!"

Think he got the message?

No, he fucking had no idea.

He thought I just said that cos I was angry at that moment. Cos Liyanah told me when I wasn't within earshot he actually asked her "Why was she so fierce just now? What's she angry with?"

Fuck it. I was trying to convey the general message of "Stop touching me like you ALWAYS DO cos I hate it and I can totally report you for a certain level of molestation."

Instead he read it as "Don't touch me AT THE MOMENT cos I'm angry with you."

I didn't tell my parents this, and I don't plan to. I can handle this on my own as long as he doesn't go over the line. At least he has realised that recently I am giving him either the cold shoulder, or just talking to him like I'm highly allergic to him cos he keeps asking what am I so irritated about. Like no more nice little girl that I was initially. Maybe that is why he thinks he can just order me around and I will obey like a bitch.

"I'm irritated when I see your face you motherfucker sonofabitch."

Gee how I wish I could say that in his face.

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

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