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Saturday, December 4, 2010

4:32 AM

Me and Damien

Damien is Dolbie's younger brother and he is 11 years old this year. The squint is not real, he actually is very cute ok. Just that he doesn't want to give me a proper face so I'll have to make do with this. It's still adorable though.

At about 11pm plus he was saying he feels like eating "crumbled eggs". Dolbie and I were totally like LOL, and I was struggling to say "You mean scrambled eggs?" Then Dolbie used the com while he snuggled beside me under my blanket and played Angry Birds on my phone with me. We were having such a laugh when each of us made some pretty epic fail moves in the game. Then I decided to cook him his "crumbled eggs".

While in the kitchen he helped me to find the frying pan, frying spatula, oil, and get the plates. Then he stood beside me like some attentive kid while I crumbl- I mean scrambled the eggs. I felt like a mum, really. Especially when I put it on the plate and he was like smelling it and went "Waaaa, so nice..."

So I cooked instant noodles for myself and we started eating together. Everyone else was asleep since it was like 3am plus, except us and Dolbie who was in her room. So there was only 2 of us in the kitchen. So we chatted. He told me his fear: of not being able to do well for PSLE next year. And the usually playful him was gone, replaced by this innocent and scared young boy. I just told him to study real hard. And in a flash he was grinning and saying pretty confidently "Orh ok." Then he asked me why his sister was so lazy, as compared to me. Ouch. I couldn't criticise her could I, lol. I just said cos their family is used to having a maid. I have to do things on my own when I'm home, so it's different. And he actually went, "No wonder you know how to do so many things, then so nice to me." I didn't tell him how Dolbie always yells and screams at him is pretty much how I treat my own younger sister. Oops.

After eating we're back in the room and he continued playing my phone for awhile. Then I gotta charge it so he said ok he'll wait for awhile then play again. So then I start using the com and he snuggled beside me under the blanket again, waiting...

Now, as I'm typing this, he's sound asleep beside me...

This is the best shot I can get seeing that I'm laying flat on my stomach beside him and trying not to wake him with my slightest movement.

So what's the point of this entire post? Actually I'm not very sure. It's just that it's pretty heartwarming for me to see that he trusts me and depends on me so much. More than his own sister. I'm not bad-mouthing Dolbie, I'm just saying... I mean come on, he's sleeping beside me on a mattress on the floor while his sister is on the bed big enough for two. Plus he's supposed to sleep in the other room, not in the same room as us. Go figure.

For this one week I believe I've talked to him and had fun with him more than Dolbie has. Even if she has, it's mostly yelling... I guess that's how you feel towards your own siblings, you don't care how badly you treat them. But Damien's behaviour reminds me of my sis Michelle. I know she looks up to me alot despite how I treat her (loads of hatred on my part). When we get along well, it's really great. When I'm in a foul mood, she gets it bad.

I think I'm actually trying to say that I miss my sis... I don't care if I go back to screaming at her, it'll still be nice to see her and hear her voice again...

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

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