Life is a fucking mystery...

Life is a fucking mystery...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

10:16 AM

[You To Me Are Everything by The Real Thing]

I would take the stars out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling if you asked me to.
I'd do anything for you
your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand.

Words cannot express how much you mean to me.
There must be some other way to make you see.
If it takes my heart and soul
you know I'd pay the price.
Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice.

Oh you to me are everything
The sweetest song that I could sing
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Though you're close to me
we seem so far apart.
Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart.
If it takes forever girl
then I'm prepared to wait.
The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Oh you to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby
To you I guess I'm just a clown
Who picks you up each time you're down
Oh baby
Oh baby
You give me just a taste of love
To build my hopes upon.
You know you've got the power girl
To keep me holding on.
So now you've got the best of me
Come on and take the rest of me
Oh baby

Oh you to me are everything.
the sweetest song that I could sing.
(You're the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby (oh baby)
Oh baby (yes I need you baby)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby (you are everything to me)
Oh baby (cant you see)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
(You're the sweetest song that I could sing.)
Oh baby
Oh baby (you're everything)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.
Oh baby
Oh baby (your the sweetest song)
You to me are everything.
The sweetest song that I could sing.

[end]

Fuck it. I'm an emotional wreck. Will somebody please help me...

This is me.

9:21 PM

Well another one of the oh-so-major turning point of our lives is here.

Buh bye to Secondary School Life and Hello to College Life, for me and many others.

I screwed up the Os, big time.

I am such a disappointment.

So what if I can still get into a JC, it's one that isn't very recognised. But that choice is what I'm definitely eligible for, so of course I'll put that as first choice to prevent any disappointments and rejections. I'm too lazy to do any appeal especially when my parents know nothing and I have to do it by myself.

4 years of secondary school life all wasted. I played too much.

My family and relatives are all really happy for me though, but that's little comfort. I know I should have done better.

16. Shit score.

All supposed A1s to A2s. Shit.

Whatever. I am the shit.

Me the Shit, so gonna study hard for JC or I can just kill myself.

This is me.

9:46 AM

Just some pictures from yesterday's photoshoot at Gwen's house. More at Facebook.

Took leave from work and went to Gwen's house at 9.15am. In the beginning just slacked around and caught up with each other, then ordered Canadian Pizza for lunch and talked some more. Then I helped her to un-clutter her wardrobe of overflowing clothes, and got to keep some of her clutter, hee :D

Then we decided to have a photoshoot, so we put on our make up, tried on clothes and yayyyyy!!!! It was super funnnn :DDD

Notice i usually have the shades on, cos I think my eyes are so small, even with the eyeliner drawn, argh. And honestly Gwen is more professional at this, she has many nice shots that are really model-like. Thanks to my awesome skills of photo-taking too ok, hahaha. Kidding...

Should do it again some time, then hopefully I'll get better at it ><

And I'm getting a sore throat D:

This is me.

10:58 AM

Man, I want him so bad...

I'm wishing like crazy he really comes to Singapore on 11 May!!!!!!! Plus there's his movie Never Say Never 3D out in April!!!!!!!

This is me.

4:04 PM

SHANE DAWSON IS FUCKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

Shane is just about my favourite YouTube person. And it's not because he's a Justin Bieber wannabe with his hair :D

His ideas for his videos are just awesome. Really. I mean "Shane Dawson and Friends" is ingenious. And the characters are so innovative.

I love Shanaynay, Paris Hilton and Aunt Hilda!!!!!!!!

Latest episode of Shane Dawson and Friends :D Anyway please ignore the title of this video. Then check out Shane's channel for more funnnnn!!!!

And I know why Shane always have rash around his lips. Look at how he applies his lipsticks. 'Nuff said.

Just a random post. Alvin the Asshole sms me from dunno where to say he need me to install antivirus software in 120 PCs. Holy Motherfucker. But he is nowhere to be seen and hasn't given me any bloody details. So what do I do? I'm heading off to the Staff Lounge again of course! :D

Did I mention Patrick is like a personal trainer? For body building. Woah.

This is me.

1:10 PM

I feel much happier now, thanks to my great colleagues (:

During breakfast with Shi Ying and Liyanah, I told them about yesterday and they listened to me raving and ranting. Though they couldn't say much since it was my private family matter, I felt better having lifted the load off my shoulders. So we headed to the Staff Lounge and looked for Patrick.

Patrick went for breakfast so Shi Ying taught Liyanah and I how to play billiards. We played a few rounds and I gotta say, it's funnnn :D But my arms are too short so I kinda lose out in this sense. Then Patrick came back and he started his usual round of disturbing me and making us LOL.

Then he decided to play with each of us a round of pool. I went first and he said the loser has to give the winner his/her number like "Can I give you my number?"

Damn, I lost of course. And we were all laughing so damn hard. At first he sat on the sofa and gave me that attitude face, waiting for me to go up to him and give him my number. In the end he just went to his office and sat at his table, waiting. He put a post it in front of me and looked at me expectantly. So in between our laughs, it went like this:

Me: I need a pen.
Patrick: Ohhh you need a pen. *hands me a pen* You need pen for what huh? *smiles*
Me: *went to face a wall and LOL while Shi Ying and Liyanah came in and LOL some more* You two come in for what luh.
Shi Ying: Must witness you giving him the number mah.
Patrick: Faster lehhh, don't laugh already.
Me: *looks at the wall* Can I give you my number?
Patrick: Eh you giving the wall your number ah? Look at me luh..
Me: *looks straight at him* Patrick Foo!!! Can I-
Patrick: Wah so scary threaten me, don't want also cannot.
*Shi Ying and Liyanah not helping by laughing some more*
Me: Can I give you my number? *smiles*
Patrick: *looks up at ceiling* Mmmm.. Ok lor. *smiles*

That's a first, and the last I swear. "Can I give you my number?" Seriously??!!

Hahaha but nonetheless it's fun :D And before you people get mistaken, Patrick is like a real big bro to me, so it's nothing beyond whatever you think it is. Plus, he's 37 years old.

But he did disturb me when he found out from Liyanah and Shi Ying that I'm er, not single. Like "Eh I heard that you're attached? Hard to believe lehh.."

He said my boyfriend must be very pitiful, always get tortured by me.

Hmmm... Is that so? (:

This is me.

9:35 AM

Can't Live Without You by Justin Bieber

I just sit here
Waiting for you to call
And then I wonder
If you're even calling at all

So many thoughts in my mind
Wishing you could be here all the time

Cause I'm lost without you
And I can't just doubt you
And it's everything about you
I just can't live without you

Cause I'm lost without you
And I can't just doubt you
And it's everything about you
I just can't live without you

This song is so awesome, why is it such a short version? And why on earth isn't it out officially.

New Year's eve was a blast but I'm not in the mood to elaborate it because I'm feeling very down now. What a way to start the year, with more chaos in the house. Yesterday spoilt everything.

The chaos isn't from partying, I wouldn't mind that. It's from quarrels and fights that nearly ended up ugly if I hadn't intervened. Yes me, I intervened in a conflict involving the fucked up adults in my family... Then in turned get blamed for it somehow? Though I have no idea why. So another perfect way to end the night, going to bed in tears.

Now I'm at work (as usual not doing anything), and it's even better than being at home because I have peace and quiet here without having to face any shit.

My life is always fucked up.

I'll stay as strong as I can cos that's what you always tell me to do, but without you it's harder than ever.

This is me.

I'm realistic, true and factual.
I don't take too much of a load of bullshit, so know my limits.
This world is fake enough, so don't add on to it by pretending to be someone you are not.
Never expect me to change into what you want me to become. I indulge in the fact that I am who I am and embrace it.
You're beautiful, don't let others tell you otherwise.
Anything else anyone is unhappy with about me, I really don't give a fuck.

▪ ~~Contact lenses~~
▪ See Justin Bieber in person!
▪ Lose weight, be slimmer!!!
▪ A personal laptop
▪ A personal digital camera
▪ More money (which will definitely settle many other things)
▪ A happier family

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